Eleni in a globe of gold

I just found this 2002 photo, while browsing through my old photo pile. This is my little niece, Eleni, riding on an elephant. As you can see, she's wearing her Super-helmet of glowing golden light, to keep any evil spirits away from her head.

I have no idea how this effect happened, but I just love it! It suits her.
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Commemoration of Summer

Fall is here. Snow is due any day now. This picture commemmorates the beauty of summer which is passing fast. Here in Colorado, we still have 75 degree days in Fall, while the night temperatures go to freezing. I just love the colors and light in this summer shot. The oak leaves are red and brown now; the green is gone.
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A Mouse Lunch

After our sweet little bunny Bunnita died, Bugs was left as a lonely widower. We started letting him roam in the yard with us for a few hours daily, so that life would hold some interest for him again. He would wander in and out of the outdoor enclosure where he and Bunnita had dug a deep hole. The mice that lived in the hutch with the rabbits moved along with Bugs. (I've named the mice Squeak and Eeek, but I can't tell which is which.) We saw them scurrying from the hutch to the outdoor enclosure, apparently looking for their buddies. On several occasions, I saw Bugs and a mouse casually munching pellets from the same bowl! A luncheon among friends. One lucky day, I caught this picture of Squeak eating sunflower seeds from the rabbit bowl. Or maybe it's Eeek.

Those hours in the yard grew longer and longer. After awhile, we were leaving Bugs to play in the garden all day, putting him in his hutch only at night. Eventually, he made it clear that he was capable of taking care of himself. He made himself several homes around the garden, under various things. He is now a free-range half-wild rabbit of the world. His favorite homes are: *under the solar panels, *in the cabbage patch, *in the bushes, and *under the plumtree branches. When we come out to his area, though, wherever he's currently hiding, he usually runs out to be petted. He and Gary have a lot of conversation time when Gary is gardening. Bugs hops alongside him, keeping Gary company. My men are good at gardening together.

Most mornings, Bugs can be found back in his enclosure, checking out his hole. Sometimes he hops back into the hutch, seeing if it's still as he left it. Snow is expected this weekend; we hope he will go into one of his old homes to stay warm.
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A Greek American Kiwi

I was browsing through a CD and found some photos that a friend took when we were in New Zealand last year. I know I'm interested when I get to see what a fellow blogger looks like, so here is evidence of my extreme pulchritude. There's been talk of my eyebrows lately, so they are featured here as Exhibit A. As a point of interest, when in Colorado, my hair is absolutely straight. The humidity in New Zealand brought out the waves that I remember so well from my younger days in coastal towns.

A Grandma and an Ethan

*****A grandma and her sweet baby Ethan. This is my favorite photo, so far, of me and the little cutie.

Gypsy, the World's Cutest Dog

****In the interest of full disclosure, I have to admit that I have the world's cutest dog as my daily companion.

Gypsy is an unusual mixture of Golden Retriever, Sheltie, and Long-Haired Dachshund. The result is a mid-sized beauty of a pooch with a sweet temperament, sharp intelligence, and the desire to herd everything in sight. She doesn't require a leash, because I am her herd and she needs to keep me in herding range... she won't leave my proximity no matter what.

In doggie years, she is now slightly older than me. Notice the gray hairs around her muzzle, just like the silver hairs appearing among my brown ones. She's not as athletic as she once was, until we take her out into the mountains to hike. Then she becomes a wild mountain dog, sniffing and chasing around the bushes and under the trees, always looping back around me before taking off on her next chase. It's a beautiful dance to watch: she races off up a path, then loops back behind me, then off down another path, then loops back around me, then does a few circles around a bush full of chipmunks, then loops back around me. It's the dance of a herder, keeping her charge in line. If Gary and I take separate paths around a hill, for example, she will loop a constant figure 8 between the two of us until our paths merge again.

She performs this service - making sure we are well and where we should be - all day and all night. As lightly as I sleep, I hear Gypsy get up and make the rounds of the house and back yard around four times nightly. The first of those rounds includes patrolling the cat food dish, to clean up whatever Puff the cat hasn't gotten to yet. It's all in a dog's line of duty.

The War Prayer, by Mark Twain

Mark Twain first submitted this short story to the women’s magazine Harper's Bazaar in March 1905. It reflected his opinions of U.S. intervention in the Phillipines. Harper’s wouldn’t publish it, considering it too radical. It was published after Mark Twain's death, during World War I, when the subject matter was once again appropriate to current events. Harper's Monthly printed this in November 1916.

The War Prayer (1905)

By Mark Twain

It was a time of great and exalting excitement. The country was up in arms, the war was on, in every breast burned the holy fire of patriotism; the drums were beating, the bands playing, the toy pistols popping, the bunched firecrackers hissing and spluttering; on every hand and far down the receding and fading spread of roofs and balconies a fluttering wilderness of flags flashed in the sun; daily the young volunteers marched down the wide avenue gay and fine in their new uniforms, the proud fathers and mothers and sisters and sweethearts cheering them with voices choked with happy emotion as they swung by; nightly the packed mass meetings listened, panting, to patriot oratory which stirred the deepest deeps of their hearts, and which they interrupted at briefest intervals with cyclones of applause, the tears running down their cheeks the while; in the churches the pastors preached devotion to flag and country, and invoked the God of Battles beseeching His aid in our good cause in outpourings of fervid eloquence which moved every listener. It was indeed a glad and gracious time, and the half dozen rash spirits that ventured to disapprove of the war and cast a doubt upon its righteousness straightway got such a stern and angry warning that for their personal safety's sake they quickly shrank out of sight and offended no more in that way.

Sunday morning came -- next day the battalions would leave for the front; the church was filled; the volunteers were there, their young faces alight with martial dreams -- visions of the stern advance, the gathering momentum, the rushing charge, the flashing sabers, the flight of the foe, the tumult, the enveloping smoke, the fierce pursuit, the surrender! Then home from the war, bronzed heroes, welcomed, adored, submerged in golden seas of glory! With the volunteers sat their dear ones, proud, happy, and envied by the neighbors and friends who had no sons and brothers to send forth to the field of honor, there to win for the flag, or, failing, die the noblest of noble deaths. The service proceeded; a war chapter from the Old Testament was read; the first prayer was said; it was followed by an organ burst that shook the building, and with one impulse the house rose, with glowing eyes and beating hearts, and poured out that tremendous invocation

God the all-terrible! Thou who ordainest!
Thunder thy clarion and lightning thy sword!

Then came the "long" prayer. None could remember the like of it for passionate pleading and moving and beautiful language. The burden of its supplication was, that an ever-merciful and benignant Father of us all would watch over our noble young soldiers, and aid, comfort, and encourage them in their patriotic work; bless them, shield them in the day of battle and the hour of peril, bear them in His mighty hand, make them strong and confident, invincible in the bloody onset; help them to crush the foe, grant to them and to their flag and country imperishable honor and glory --

An aged stranger entered and moved with slow and noiseless step up the main aisle, his eyes fixed upon the minister, his long body clothed in a robe that reached to his feet, his head bare, his white hair descending in a frothy cataract to his shoulders, his seamy face unnaturally pale, pale even to ghastliness. With all eyes following him and wondering, he made his silent way; without pausing, he ascended to the preacher's side and stood there waiting. With shut lids the preacher, unconscious of his presence, continued with his moving prayer, and at last finished it with the words, uttered in fervent appeal, "Bless our arms, grant us the victory, O Lord our God, Father and Protector of our land and flag!"

The stranger touched his arm, motioned him to step aside -- which the startled minister did -- and took his place. During some moments he surveyed the spellbound audience with solemn eyes, in which burned an uncanny light; then in a deep voice he said:

"I come from the Throne -- bearing a message from Almighty God!" The words smote the house with a shock; if the stranger perceived it he gave no attention. "He has heard the prayer of His servant your shepherd, and will grant it if such shall be your desire after I, His messenger, shall have explained to you its import -- that is to say, its full import. For it is like unto many of the prayers of men, in that it asks for more than he who utters it is aware of -- except he pause and think.

"God's servant and yours has prayed his prayer. Has he paused and taken thought? Is it one prayer? No, it is two -- one uttered, the other not. Both have reached the ear of Him Who heareth all supplications, the spoken and the unspoken. Ponder this -- keep it in mind. If you would beseech a blessing upon yourself, beware! lest without intent you invoke a curse upon a neighbor at the same time. If you pray for the blessing of rain upon your crop which needs it, by that act you are possibly praying for a curse upon some neighbor's crop which may not need rain and can be injured by it.

"You have heard your servant's prayer -- the uttered part of it. I am commissioned of God to put into words the other part of it -- that part which the pastor -- and also you in your hearts -- fervently prayed silently. And ignorantly and unthinkingly? God grant that it was so! You heard these words: 'Grant us the victory, O Lord our God!' That is sufficient. The whole of the uttered prayer is compact into those pregnant words. Elaborations were not necessary. When you have prayed for victory you have prayed for many unmentioned results which follow victory -- must follow it, cannot help but follow it. Upon the listening spirit of God fell also the unspoken part of the prayer. He commandeth me to put it into words. Listen!

"O Lord our Father, our young patriots, idols of our hearts, go forth to battle -- be Thou near them! With them -- in spirit -- we also go forth from the sweet peace of our beloved firesides to smite the foe. O Lord our God, help us to tear their soldiers to bloody shreds with our shells; help us to cover their smiling fields with the pale forms of their patriot dead; help us to drown the thunder of the guns with the shrieks of their wounded, writhing in pain; help us to lay waste their humble homes with a hurricane of fire; help us to wring the hearts of their unoffending widows with unavailing grief; help us to turn them out roofless with little children to wander unfriended the wastes of their desolated land in rags and hunger and thirst, sports of the sun flames of summer and the icy winds of winter, broken in spirit, worn with travail, imploring Thee for the refuge of the grave and denied it -- for our sakes who adore Thee, Lord, blast their hopes, blight their lives, protract their bitter pilgrimage, make heavy their steps, water their way with their tears, stain the white snow with the blood of their wounded feet! We ask it, in the spirit of love, of Him Who is the Source of Love, and Who is the ever-faithful refuge and friend of all that are sore beset and seek His aid with humble and contrite hearts. Amen.

(After a pause.) "Ye have prayed it; if ye still desire it, speak! The messenger of the Most High waits!"

It was believed afterward that the man was a lunatic, because there was no sense in what he said.

Source: Jim Zwick ed., Mark Twain's Weapons of Satire (Syracuse University Press, 1992)

Bugs and Bunnita

Here is the happy couple, just weeks before Bugs was abruptly widowed. Bugs is the gray one rolling happily in the cool soil. Bunnita is cleaning his ears, as she didn't often do. Usually she burrowed her head under his chin, encouraging him to wash her ears. He loved to oblige.

Eulogy for a Bunny

My little Bunnita, a "dwarf bunny", died yesterday. We don't know why. Rabbits are fragile beings with delicate constitutions. She had an upset digestive system, that the vet said could be serious, so maybe that was all it took to end her life. Maybe the heat added too much physical stress.

I'd like to take a few lines to appreciate the life she had. For a year and a half, she made one other rabbit, Bugs, a very happy rabbit. He snuggled with her and washed her ears all throughout every day. He dug a nice deep burrow for her to enjoy. He let her eat the first bites of the food all the time.

For a year and a half, she delighted us humans. She had a demeanor of "little girl", always a little shy, hiding behind her big brave Bugs, but coming out to be petted or to be inquisitive. She hid her face in my hair when I held her at my shoulder. Cuddling with her was like cuddling with purity. She brought out my capacity for tenderness and careful attentiveness and love, because that's what she required. Her personality was funny and quirky and gentle and sometimes bold. And she was so cute: front half brown, back half white, with tiny brown ears.

She led a good, if short, life. Fare well, sweet little Bunnita.
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My Life With Books

This is a list of my relationship with books, based on a questionnaire at my other blog.

1. TOTAL NUMBER OF BOOKS I’VE OWNED: It’s in the thousands. Each time I’ve moved during my adult life, I manage to thin out my collection and get rid of some. Then I get more. Main topics: Art, psychology, writing, spirituality, philosophy, science fiction. I pass them along to others, loan the really good ones out, and keep the ones I refer to often. There are a few classics that I always keep: The Complete Pelican Shakespeare, The Phantom Tollbooth and A Wrinkle In Time (wonderful adult books disguised as childrens books), The People’s Almanac by David Wallechinsky and Irving Wallace, Womens Bodies, Women’s Wisdom by Dr. Christiane Northrop, Writing Well by Donald Hall, The Joy of Signing (basic sign language textbook), The Power of Myth by Joseph Campbell, Hands of Light by Barbara Brennan, The I-Ching.

2. LAST BOOK I BOUGHT: CranioSacral Biodynamics by Franklyn Sills. This is a text book for students of CranioSacral Therapy, but has some excellent reading on awareness. My husband just bought two great books, a few days ago, and they are next on my list. They are: The Biology of Belief: Unleashing the power of Consciousness, Matter and Miracles by Bruce Lipton, and also God Without Religion: Questioning Centuries of Accepted Truths by Sankara Saranam.

3. LAST BOOK I COMPLETED: I re-read The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings Trilogy by J.R.R. Tolkein. They are so much fun!

4. FIVE BOOKS THAT MEAN A LOT TO ME:

Book 1. The Cultural Creatives: How 50 Million People are Changing The World by Paul H. Ray, Ph.D. and Sherry Ruth Anderson, Ph.D. The website: www.culturalcreatives.org For 13 years this couple of psychologists interviewed 100,000 Americans and conducted 100 focus groups to determine the types of people in this country. The Traditionals and The Moderns are easily seen, but the Cultural Creatives are not so obvious. Here is a summary of what they discovered about this hidden category: “The Cultural Creatives care deeply about ecology and saving the planet, about relationships, peace, social justice, and about self actualization, spirituality and self-expression. Surprisingly, they are both inner-directed and socially concerned, they're activists, volunteers and contributors to good causes more than other Americans. However, because they've been so invisible in American life, Cultural Creatives themselves are astonished to find out how many share both their values and their way of life. Once they realize their numbers, their impact on American life promises to be enormous, shaping a new agenda for the twenty-first century.” This book can give hope to people who feel alone in this society.

Book 2. The Power of Myth by Joseph Campbell. This is one of the treasures in my book collection. Joseph Campbell pours his heart and soul into describing the religions and philosophies of the world, and how they all fit together. His life’s work comes together into an enlightening tapestry, during this series of Bill Moyers interviews conducted over the last year of Campbell’s life. His passion brings history to life in a new and inspiring and personal way.

Book 3. Seven Arrows by Hyemeyohsts Storm These are American Indian teaching stories that speak to the reader on many levels at once. There is an endless stream of wisdom flowing throughout this book. No matter how many times I read the stories, I get some new understanding each time. The stories are utterly unlike anything our non-native society is accustomed to.

Book 4. Ishmael and My Ishmael by Daniel Quinn. I can’t express strongly enough how much I think these two books hold the power to turn a person inside out and come to know their place in the world in a different way. Daniel Quinn brings together cutting-edge ideas from a wide spectrum of sciences, and suddenly the history of humanity has new meaning. Amazing.

Book 5. Siddhartha and Journey To The East by Hermann Hesse. When I was 17 I read these two books, and was blasted into a new awareness of my ability to transform myself into a more worthwhile person, based on my own values.

5.WHAT I AM CURRENTLY READING: Power vs. Force : The Hidden Determinants of Human Behavior by David Hawkins, MD, PhD. Almost done with it!

Bonnie and Clyde

This is a test post, to see whether or not I can really write from on the road. That is the primary reason for getting this alternate blog.

I am in Oklahoma, and have been here for a few days. We are visiting my sister's Comanche / Kiowa relatives. I enjoy being Aunt Bonnie; my sister's kids as well as their Oklahoma cousins call me Aunt Bonnie. We have been frolicking in the swimming pool, eating tons of food, laughing a lot, and playing games around the dining room table in their spacious, high-ceilinged strawbale adobe house on a small ranch.

This is my first meeting with Clyde, my ...uh... nehpew-in-law once removed? My excellent nephew. He is 14, and is tired of hearing how much he resembles my sister's son, his cousin John. Sorry, Clyde, but you're both totally wonderful guys. The fact that we've finally met in person solidifies an important relationship: Bonnie and Clyde are back!

We spent the day in Medicine Park - a historic preserve, with a wildlife preserve that shelters buffalo, longhorn cattle, elks, etc. In one little town, we discovered an amazing coincidence. The little cabins near the lake were where the original Bonnie and Clyde holed up after their infamous bank robberies. The town even had wooden cutouts of Bonnie and Clyde, where you stick your head through the hole and have your picture taken looking like them. Of course, Clyde and I did that, and did a couple of other poses too. I'll post the best of the photos as soon as my sister gets her film developed. Stay tuned!

Boulder Interlude

I wrote this while visiting Boulder, Colorado. A friend lined up two days of clients for me to see. It’s fun to be a traveling expert! Spending time in a totally different setting is utterly refreshing, and having hours to myself is soooo relaxing. I’d really love to write stories about my adventures with the clients, but that just isn’t cool. Confidentiality, you know. Suffice it to say that each of us is a universe unto ourselves, with a history and habit and interpretation of events unique to us. I am in awe of the wisdom and the pain hidden within every person. We are an awe-inspiring species.

June 29, 2005

For 12 hours, my home is an old schoolbus named Quicksilver. A more apt name might be “Parked Silver”. Quicksilver waits patiently in the side yard, offering refuge for guests and kids on college breaks. I see my clients in the treatment room in the house, then retire to the bus for sleep.

I’m delighted with my quaint, quiet lodgings. The bed is cozy. The table is adorned with a vase of glistening red roses for my benefit. To my surprise, the bookshelf holds the same anatomy book I’m studying at home! Tonight I studied the many layers of skin. The little illustrations of layered skin cross-sections look like drawings of layer cakes. Weird.

Next I dove into a book that set off a chain reaction of explosions in my psyche. It’s called “Maps to Ecstasy” by Gabrielle Roth. Wow. In a nutshell - a paltry, deficient nutshell – she describes archetypal movement and dance as one way to leave behind all hurts, habits, patterns and concepts, and find freedom in the stillpoint within the center of the soul. Her stories of discovering Life in the pure moment, primarily through dance, are enrapturing. The exercises she suggests are intriguing, and FUN!

How can I lie in a schoolbus and read about dancing?!? I just wanna get up and dance til I lose my poise, dance til I forget who I am, dance til I remember who I am, and then dance as an expression of my soul! Quicksilver the bus would probably tumble over, though, if I started that kind of action. It’ll have to wait.

Sleep eludes me so far. In this metal shelter, even the rustle of windfallen leaves on the roof is audible. Every so often “thud-scamper-scamper” a squirrel leaps from a tree to the bus roof. Then “scurry-scurry-scamper” it does whatever squirrels do on top of buses in the night, and leaps back to the tree.

Endless muted traffic flow on the nearby freeway reminds me of the ocean, minus the rhythmic organization. I close my eyes, relax, and breathe audibly in the back of my throat, breathing like the ocean waves. I’m dancing inwardly, slowly, like an ocean wave. Dancing to sleep in a schoolbus.
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Premonitions of Skunks

Yes, I have an unusual life. This is another true story. I hope you all will remind me of this, if some catastrophe befalls me. ~ W.W. ~

July 7, 2005

Sometime in the darkness last night, I was awakened by an unseen companion. I was too sleepy to tell who/what it was. A sweet silent voice, possibly from within the dream (although I was fully awake) spoke to me. It said “A skunk scent is going to come in that bedroom window in a few minutes. When it does, you should understand it as a metaphor for life.”

I sniffed. No smell. What was this all about? What kind of metaphor for life could this be? And why did I need to be awakened for this? I lay there and wondered why I would dream this… only I was awake…. so what was going on… and why talk to me about skunk scent in the middle of the night…. metaphor for life?? I couldn’t get back to sleep.

Several minutes later, a horrible acrid stench began wafting through the window. I almost gagged from the potency that accumulated quickly. That skunk must have been right under our window. It was suffocatingly intense.

The gentle, kind voice was back, speaking silently into my awareness again. “This skunk smell is unpleasant, but you did nothing to bring it on yourself. You are not to blame. The skunk is not aiming the scent at you on purpose. You are just a witness.”

I thought about this. Yes, it’s true. Not really profound, but true.

The voice said “Sometimes in life, you receive a warning in advance that something unpleasant is going to happen to you. Remember the skunk smell. That is the metaphor for life that you should remember. If you receive a warning in advance that something unpleasant is going to happen to you, when it happens remember that you are just a witness. You did not bring it on yourself, and it is not aimed personally at you. Be the witness.”

Now this bizarre mid-night meeting was starting to form a coherent picture. Yes, I did receive a warning several minutes before the skunk sprayed. From the blinding, nauseating impact of the smell, it was clear that the skunk must have been right near the window. That also meant that the skunk had not yet sprayed when I was woken up and told about it, or I would have already smelled it.

Interesting.

As the pieces jostled together into the coherent picture, I began to wonder. Was THIS the warning? Is something unpleasant about to happen to me? Something so bad that I required a visit from a guardian angel to advise me to not take it personally? I have received other warnings before this, when something stressful is about to fall my way. I usually have a day to gather all my strength and wisdom, to pray and expand myself and connect with the cycles of nature, after a warning; thus I can handle it without collapse.
My brain thinks I should be getting pretty worried right about now, but I’m not. I feel peaceful, knowing that I am watched over with benevolence. Once I’ve written this story, to get it out of my system, I won’t fret. Either it will turn out to be a random nugget of wisdom handed to me in the night, or else something unpleasant will happen soon. If something nasty happens, I will stand back and witness it and feel grateful for the advice. I’ll remember the skunk.
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Losing a Beloved Pet

Within the past 24 hours, I've heard of a friend whose beloved pet bird died, and one whose beloved cat died. Both of them are grieving deeply. With each story, I look again at my darling buddy, my 17 year old cat, Puff. Seventeen cat years equals about 100 human years.

When my former cat Frankie died, our aged beagle was devastated. I had to get another cat soon to keep the dog from dying of a broken heart. I went two weeks later to the Humane Society to rescue a needy kitten. There were dozens to choose from that day. Rows of cages contained cute, pretty kittens all sleeping or sitting and watching for a new family.

The last cage on the top row housed a little orange-and-white medium-hair kitten who was wide awake. When she saw me, she started jumping and doing somersaults, trying to entice me to play. A little white paw reached out to flag me down. I approached, and she stopped jumping and started purring loudly, rubbing against the bars. I turned to look at the rest of the kittens. "Mew! Mew!" Her petite little meows objected to my leaving. When I turned back, she purred again, and batted at me. I stayed to play, watching her somersaulting antics. If I looked away toward the other dozing kittens, she became outraged. "MEW! MEW!!!" If I looked back at her: “PURRR!!!” It turns out that I am an obedient slave to adorable balls of fluff.

Puff and the dog bonded instantly. Our new little kitten gave a tongue bath to that smelly, fat, old ecstatic dog that night and every night for the rest of the dog’s life.

Puff has been a bundle of love all along. I offer as proof the orange spot on her back that is in the shape of a perfect heart. Whenever we have people over, she takes turns sitting in each person’s lap, purring. If somebody is sick, she sits on their lap, purring until they get better. The few times I’ve had a devastating case of the flu, she stays with me on the couch for the week or two until I’m well. One time Gary and I had a fight and I felt terrible. She lay on my chest all night, one paw on each side of my face, purring into my heart. That’s the only time she’s slept on me at night.

Her taste in people and hobbies is impeccable. After nursing me through my divorce with plenty of walks together and lots of purring, she accompanied me to Colorado. Eventually I met Gary Immediately she fell in love with him and became Gary’s cat. I call her his other wife. When we married, I got a piano, and Puff took up playing. In the middle of the night, she’d jump up on the keyboard and start walking around. She still does that when things become too boring for her. If I start playing, she will also hop up and share in the music. She loves to sniff flowers too.

These days she is too arthritic to accompany us on walks. Instead, on nice summer evenings Gary and I pack up the dog and cat and drive to the ice cream shop. Puff and Gypsy share a little dish of vanilla ice cream. We all sit in the back of the car with the hatch up, enjoying our peaceful treat time together.

It’s heartbreaking to see her looking so skeletal and ragged. She’s deaf now, always in pain, and gets confused a lot. But she's still purring! It can be harder in some ways to lose a beloved pet, an inter-species friendship, than to lose a person. Animals see the best in you, and love unconditionally. People relationships take work. Pet relationships are a sharing of love and contentment. Losing an animal is losing a being of purity and innocence, one who gave only joy in their life. Something hurts terribly when we lose a person, but something different hurts terribly when we lose an animal friend. I am trying to prepare myself, but I don’t look forward to losing Puff.
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WAVES OF HUMAN DOLPHINS

Last year at this time, we sold our gallery and started churning up the complacency in our lives. The goal was to find a new way to live, a simpler, more sustainable, less toxic, more harmonious way to live. We wanted a way to live as our truest selves, rather than just working as hard as possible to pay our mortgage. Gary quit his job, determined to find a way to do what he loved for a living. I established a professional practice of holistic healing, which was my part-time work already.

During those heady days of determination to beat the system, we met neighbors we'd never seen before. Other like-minded people, individuals and couples, jumped off the merry-go-round at the same time we did. The synchronicity of humans can be startling. What influence suddenly entered the collective consciousness and propelled some of us off the carousel and over the cliff?

We bonded. Groups of us met for breakfast or for lunch or in our backyards, to discuss how to make this work. All summer and fall we turned ourselves into a community within the community. Various ones of us worked for others of us. A friend jumped ship from her bookkeeping job, and we persuaded her to start her own bookkeeping firm. She did my books and I did healing sessions to help her cope with the death of her sister. Barter is wonderful. Then she started gardening part time for my friend who was starting up an organic gardening business. Gary also gardened with that group, to bring in some income while he found a business that suited him. Another neighbor hired the new gardening group, and the neighborhood community grew. Carpenters, gardeners, electricians worked on one anothers' houses all summer.

Later, Gary helped another neighbor start a business involving natural nontoxic clay paints for interior walls. (shameless plug: www.hallswalls.biz) They created a website and held classes and did samples of their work, but found that there wasn't enough income for two. Meanwhile, they helped Gary remodel our bathrooms, while he made their website. Barter is wonderful. I did healing work for them as needed, in exchange for referrals of new clients. That worked well for all of us.

I held a Company Party for the Self Employed that Christmas. When you work for yourself, there is no company party to get dressed up for at the holidays. So we had our own Company Party. It was a spectacular success! Everyone within this new community got to meet everyone else, if they hadn't already. Business cards were exchanged and new projects were formed.

As winter wore on, the hardship of being self-employed... or "self un-employed" as we fondly called it, became heavier. Savings were running dry for all of us, and the euphoria had worn off. We were becoming worried about medical care and losing our houses. The joyful gatherings of invention turned into serious discussions of how to get something moving quickly.

Just as Gary and I were contemplating emergency measures to ensure our survival, he was offered a better job back at his previous workplace. They missed him there. Gary jumped on the offer, and our sinking ship was reprieved. He determined that he would take a new attitude into the work this time, bringing more of his heart and soul with him, instead of just a work persona.

Right about that same time, I had a remarkable meeting with my monthly women's group. One woman friend, who had done the same things with her life at the same times, had just returned to her former company. She was delighted to return, feeling that she had a brand new view of the job and a real change of heart. Her husband, who had also left his job last May - all of us only met AFTER quitting our jobs simultaneously - had just taken a regular job as well. Another woman in our group had a husband who quit his job last spring too. He had recently decided to stay in his field and return to work, rather than trying to forge a new path. Yet another woman in our group had just taken a job after a year of retreat and contemplation of her life. None of us knew of these developments until our monthly gathering.

And so on, and so on. As abruptly as we all left our usual worlds, we all returned to our former places with new mindsets and new joy.

What causes these mysterious migrations of humans? We have moved through this year with the beautiful synchrony of dolphins leaping in unison. One day, dozens of strangers within a city made a similar move and met the others on this unusual path. We bonded, worked together, invented and planned together. Then one day we scattered back to where we came from.

I think there is a larger social force at work here, some kind of infusion of invisible energy and guidance, to help kickstart society into a new mode. Some of our group took the exciting new energy back to their weary former co-workers. It has had an effect on those folks. Some of our group succeeded in launching a new business over this past year. Our bookkeeping friend is busier than before, loving her freedom. She and another friend have even started a soap-and-lotion-making business for fun. My holistic health practice is booming, and I am writing a book and offering classes. The clay wall paint business is growing slowly but steadily. Many among our group began teaching their favorite topics last year, and have continued doing that. Teaching adds the meaning to their lives that had eluded them previously.

What causes flocks of birds to suddenly turn in midflight? What causes schools of fish to flit as one into a new direction? I think it's the same force that is affecting people like us. We are willing to be moved by the forces of grace and harmony, so therefore we are. We have loosened ourselves out from our tight fit into society. That makes us freer to be be blown by the winds of grace to a spot where we belong. Freedom is a contagion. The more of us who infect the collective human consciousness with thoughts of freedom, the more it spreads. That feels good to me.

(note: if you're new to this blog, read the previously posted stories for the step-by-step walk through this journey. I'm still building this blog, so it's not at all complete yet. Check back in a week or two, and it will be better.)
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I have such a way with babies! Little Ethan is so cute when he cries. 

A peony!